Midnight MOMalogue Blog - vol. 1 | Letting Go

It’s 4 in the morning. As I sit in the dark nursing my four month old baby, hearing only the sound of him eating and the gentle hum of the furnace, my mind races. 

There’s the never ending to do list running through my mind. There’s all the feelings weighing me down. Imposter syndrome, fear, self esteem, worry, the list goes on and on and on. Then sprinkled amongst all the chaos in my mind is hope…and optimism…and joy. 

Feelings I was afraid I would never feel again. You see for the first six to eight weeks of being a mom I had intense postpartum depression and postpartum anxiety. With the help of my therapist and my doctor, we were able to find a solution for me. To get me up and out of the deep, dark place I was in. 

And now that my mind is clearer, and as I begin to discover who I am as a mom, I am faced with a choice. Let fear and worry and imposter syndrome steal my joy…. Or choose to let them go. 

As I step into this chapter of rediscovering myself and building the life of my dreams, I’m choosing to let them go. Will it be easy? Probably not. Will those feelings of doubt still creep in sometimes? Probably. But am I going to try my hardest to let those intrusive thoughts go? 1000% yes. 

What things do you need to let go of?